Transitions hurt, kind of like growing pains!!

Right now in our lives we are experiencing a transition. George has started his masters program and I'm in search of additional income that will accommodate our crazy busy schedule. I know God is going to take care of us because he already has with all the things that has happened in our lives recently. However, having faith is so hard. I want to keep my end of the deal and be diligent in searching for a job instead of waiting around for something to fall in my lap, but I have to say it's so discouraging when all that I've applied for or thought of hasn't really been the answer that we need...or should I say, want. I want to enjoy my kids and my family, but it's hard to focus on them when I'm always thinking and searching what it is that I'm supposed to do to help bring in money. I kind of wish that something would just fall in my lap then I would have to worry so much. That's one of my weaknesses though...worry. Some reason I can't just give it ALL to God, it's like I always have to be in control and when I'm not, I get all messed up. I'm working on it though, slowly, but surely. I'm no where near perfect, but it's being addressed. I know it's hard right now, but in the end, after all the dust settles and we are back to a normal routine it'll be better, it's just the matter of getting there. 

It made me think of how winters here in Minnesota is hard, it's long and dreary, but in the end spring comes and all is beautiful again. I guess it's all about perspective, maybe if I change that I won't be as worried about my situation. 

This song has been on my heart a lot lately. While I'm trying to really give it all to Him. 

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

So today to get my head and heart out of the land of doldrums I rearranged my kitchen table and made it look a little bit more springy! It made me smile with all the bright colors...all I need now is REAL flowers, but these fake ones will do for now.